slow and steady

Hey so I know I haven't blogged in the longest time, I just want to say that I am genuinely sorry to all of my loyal followers! I really hope you all find it with in you to forgive my absence. I really feel more blogs coming on I promise!

Here is something to get you going until next time!

Recently I have been looking for a job, and trying to raise money for STiM and honestly neither of those things have been going extraordinarily well, in fact I don't really think it's too far off to say that both have been far less than fruitful. I continue to trust. Slow and steady wins races from what I understand but I really don't think this is the case, I feel that I'm alright with slow and steady, it's this fast stuff that really stresses me out. I don't even think it's fast pace stuff, I mean maybe I'm just not even in the race! Maybe it's a lack of motivation or direction... I don't know. I just really don't know but it is seriously such a time of desperation and need.

This is such a stressful time right now, there is a month left of my third year of college and I'm trying to find job! So ridiculous! Trying to finish strong in my classes while I also try to learn a new job! I really don't know how this is suppose to work out. I guess I shouldn't have to though, I should trust, I have to be alright with the outcome no matter what it is, but what if it sucks? Okay so I'm told it will build character, got it that's great and then what? The next time someone thinks to asks for my advice on quitting their job mid semester without having another one lined up, I can play Nike's biggest opposition ("don't do it")? That sounds like a great career.

Okay I'm done complaining. I have a lot to be thankful for and I know that ugh! Okay now to shake it off so many more important things to talk about.

LIKE!!!!

Three of the four pieces of Jen's new furniture are now built and they look pretty good, only the night stand is left hooray! Also big things are happening everywhere and I can feel it... it's like a peace, like that everything is going to start.. I don't know really how to explain it but its there.

I made a 97 on my Mexican American Families test and I made an 88 on my spanish test!

I had an interview on sunday for a new job and I think it went extra well!

I made it on time to a meeting (or at least with in 5 minutes).

Anyway so this is not all I have to say... so much more, so much more! But I need to go to bed and get some sleep, I was falling asleep during biggest loser! So sad!

(This has been in my head and still kind of is... it's slightly dark I guess, maybe even a little bit morbid but if you can tell me the lesson in the story you will win a cookie... though you will probably never get it, sorry)

All the way to grandma's house,
I stayed on the narrow path
But my brother wandered off,
Deep into the wood.

Bitten twice by rattle snakes,
Tangled up in poison oak,
He fell down and broke his legs,
Into a great ravine.

When I arrived at grandma's house,
She had made us tea and cake.
She asked me where my brother was,
I said I don't know and ate.

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