all things lovely only hurt my head.

sometimes i honestly question what it is that i am doing.
seriously.

what am i doing

i don't know where i am suppose to be or what i am suppose to be doing.
i guess right now "wait, this is just a season" would be the most common answer i would hear from all the people with more wisdom then i have...
have you ever wanted to forget what those people say? i am old enough to drink i am old enough to make my own decisions... if only i knew what decision to make.

maybe this is the stress talking
maybe this is just my burden

maybe this is just me wanting to run away...

i wanted that almost exactly a year ago, i drove 3000 miles to nowhere and slept out in the cold. i remember, during that time, sitting with a dear friend
on the banks of a lake as still as death,
and as quiet as a library
or an empty church.

i want that lake right now.
i want calmness.

i guess this is just my lesson
so i guess this is another opportunity to wait and see what happens

...

well i can see it as time and a sight through smell and
that's why its nice to be by yourself

'cause that's what i'm waiting for
that's what i'm waiting for
that's what i'm waiting for, aren't i?